Sometimes things sneak up on me. I’ll be cruising along, just fine, and then ….boom. Too much on my plate. There’s usually no warning sign when this is going to happen, or at least I don’t notice one.
My husband does, however.
I have learned the hard way, that what I want to do and what I CAN do are two different things. I always have good intentions, but that will only take me so far.
My natural tendency is to say “yes” before I think too much. I do a lot of things on impulse, and I trust my instincts. Usually, I am right. However, I still tend to over commit myself.
This happened again, today. I woke up this morning, got the kids off to school, and then just sat in my car. I literally had no idea what to do with myself. Now, let me qualify that statement: I had plenty that needed to be done, but I honestly had no idea where to start. No idea at all.
There was too much.
So, I started driving, and wound up at one of my favorite trails. I needed clarity, and I knew I would find it here. I sat in my car looking at the trees and the scenery. I needed to run a little to get things moving in my mind.
I got out of the car and started walking. Soon, I realized I was running. I passed over a bridge, and the water was running really high due to the recent rains. I realized that even nature gets over loaded sometimes. My stream had turned into noisy and fast moving water, and it was running under my bridge loudly.
I figured that maybe, like the water, I would let the excess run off, and eventually return to my normal, happy place.
I continued to run with a new sense of hope that things will work out just fine. I just needed to deal with my run-off, and clear things out a little at a time. So, I started with that day and asked myself: “What can I do today, no matter how small, to make things feel better?” I picked something small and easy that I knew I could complete that day that would make a difference.
And I will continue to move on from there. Clearing things out in small chunks, one at a time, until I reach my equilibrium again.
All I needed was a little run and a reminder to look for clues on the trail. Nature told me that everything will be fine. And it will.
Run Happy. Run Long.