Who are you? What do you do? Why do you do it? What motivates you?
I run because I can. I run because my body wants it. When I don’t run, things don’t work. My mind gets stale, by body gets stiff, and things just don’t feel right.
Running is how I problem solve. It’s how I manage stress. Running sets me free. When I run, that’s my time to be me. Just me. I’ve always tended to be a lone wolf when I train, and I’m ok with that. I’m also ok with running and training with friends, but I limit how often that happens. I’m just not that social, I suppose.
Maybe it’s because I like to get away from noise. I’m not sure, but quiet is good. Especially in today’s world, where we are often being bombarded with “stuff’ and we are expected to always be connected.
I want to disconnect. I don’t want to be available. I don’t want to be responsible. I want to be running.
I remember a quote that I saw a while back, and I laughed when I read it. But, after my initial reaction, I thought about it and realized that maybe it’s true in my own little world. “The worst decision I ever made was being a grown up.”
Is that why I feel like escaping? Most likely, yes. Seeing as how the first thing I do when the kids are in school is disappear on the trail. Am I avoiding responsibility? Temporarily, yes. Am I being child-like and less like a grown up? Yes.
And I’m ok with that. I know that my time on the trail will be limited, so I drink every last drop I can from that cup. I pay attention to the trees, the dirt and rocks on the path, the birds, the colors….i want all of it. I take in as much as I can, and for that period of time, I am a child again. I am full of wonder again. I am stress free and irresponsible. And it feels great.
I know that I will go back to being a grown up later, but for now….I’m unplugged.
Run Happy. Run Long.